Freedom.

So, I've been thinking about freedom lately. Not like "God bless america"freedom, like: Pure-FREEDOM. Like living in nature, with instruments, and people that think the same way as you, openminded, transcendental-not taking things for granted like we can't help but do in these lives we live in now...with everything provided for us...it disgusts me when i think about it sometimes..the way we have anything and everything we want-not need, but WANT. But the thing is...I really dont have everything I want 'cause what I want is freedom-which living here, in this way, just doesnt provide. I want nothing more than to just leave-right now-with a bunch of transcendental friends who love the beauty and freedom and life found in nature...and move into a cabin in the woods...in the mountains....it'd be so beautiful...we could play music, paint things, dance,...it'd just feel so free and youthful and beautiful. I want to have that life just well up inside of me like that... I've been talking pretty much every day with this guy at school-and he's extremely transcendental, he thinks exactly like me...he listens to all this wonderful, chill music...bluegrass...folk...and like...radiohead...and him and his friends are already checking out this cabin they're planning on buying up in the mountains by the college they'll be going to...and they're checking out a dog to buy n stuff...and ..i dunno, he's just been like dreaming outloud about it, just telling me how wonderful it feels to even just be able to hope for such freedom and look forward to it, and we talk about how this whole thing that these kids are stuck in...it's disgusting...you try to carry on a conversation with one of them, and they have nothing to say..all they live for is comfort..I don't want comfort, I want life man. I'm so sick of this day-to-day cycle of boring, normal, comfortable life. of life that provides everything for you, if you want this useless thing, you've GOT IT!, if you want that useless thing-YOU'VE GOT IT!...it's sick. I want the freedom man-that's the life my kids will know-how to be free and not have to be held down by insecurity...and wanting to fit in...and desiring stupid things like technology...just wanting entertainment all the time-getting lazy and fat and living just to be wealthy and successful...I would hate myself if my kids were taught to be that way growing up. life is not money...you cant eat money-money doesnt give you true freedom...it just doesnt, even if it feels like it-it just ties you up more and more until you become that rich depressed old man...with nothing to do...


Anyways, just had to get those thoughts out of my mind somehow...well, they're still not out of my mind, but I don't want them to be...'cause I know what I want...and I want to keep it that way.